A
fairytale landscape.
A chorus
of birds, sunlight sifting gently through the trees.
An
earthly paradise, a lush utopia.
Absurd.
Ridiculous.
Impossible.
I walk
along Erinnerungsstraße, the way of remembrance, and
the soft spring breeze lifts my hair.
Fields
of gold ripple in the sunlight, running down to the small, gleaming village,
framed by vast snowy peaks.
Look
right. Turn. Flanked by the same pale crop, it stands. Long, Squat. Dull like
the grey of old bones. But strong. Solid. Present.
My
map
My
audio
My
self
sit under the beating sun.
The
gate stands, distant but dark. Take time to read, and understand.
Then
walking, one footstep among
many, passing through. Stand alone on the hard stones, and feel the magnitude
of not-so-distant history.
What do the
visitors see?
5 hours is a long time.
In the
bright sun, it all seems surreal. Or real. Up is down and down is up. The
passing of time ceases to register. All thoughts are directed inwards, to make
sense of this empty, static mass that still stands under the blazing sun. No
nightmare bells, sobering rain, cleansing, bitter wind to take the breath away.
It is there
(down
down
down)
that
things begin to come clearer.
Or
meet with expectations.
Or
seem like what you’ve seen in pictures.
Or
saw in the movies.
Or
at least, dear God, inspire SOME reaction to show that you have a beating
heart.
It’s just the laundry room
But
the underground darkness forces your eyes to adjust to the coldness of the
fluorescent bulb. The walls seem ancient, peeling and decaying. Then you get
the first taste, a glimpse through the open doorway. Dim still, with tiled
floor and hanging metal heads. The showers. (But the real showers. Not the
other kind, the abhorrent kind.)
Walk back to the long square
The
weight starts to feel heavier, but moving on. The barracks. (2 to a bed, but
later, 1000 to a room.) The office. (Privileged prisoners worked here.) The
brothel. (Women were given free abortions if they got pregnant. Whether they
survived is another story.)
An
exhibit with pictures. The SS are so young, so normal. Even smiling. All
capable of coming home to their families at the end of the working day.
The place of
execution
A
wire. Hangings.
An
alcove. Shootings.
You
venture further.
Alone,
you step into a square, white chamber. A few memorial plaques line the walls,
but it’s very bare. White tile. Drains. Coiled, dark pipes. It dawns suddenly
Gaskammer
The silence is too much.
But
then, walking further, you come to another chamber. Flowers deck the doorway.
Bright light streams in. You enter, and are faced with the ovens. The
crematorium. But they do not seem to be a threat. In fact, they’re rather the
opposite. Small candles – bright prayers – light the inside, and wreaths and
memorials adorn the base. Notes, prayer cards, and tokens have been left there,
filling the room with quiet peace. A group of schoolchildren enters. Softly,
they murmur to each other while reading the inscriptions, moving from photo to
photo. The sun seems less stark – more warm.
On the walk up. |
"Erinnerungsstrasse" |
View of the camp from the road. |
View of the town of Mauthausen from the road leading to the camp. |
Camp gate. |
"Appellplatz" - the main area for roll call. |
The shower room. |
The disinfectant chamber. |
Main gates. |
Concentration camps (and satellites) in Austria. |
Letters home had to say that the writers were healthy and doing well. |
Antifascists. |
The SS guards. |
Mauthausen main square (the town 6km from the camp) |
For a comparison of historical and modern images, see the site "Third Reich in Ruins": http://www.thirdreichruins.com/mauthausen.htm
Thank you for sharing this profound experience, so we can bear witness with you.
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